Spiritual Growth Workshop version 2

The more I’ve had time to think about, I now believe that this is what actually happened at the Spiritual Growth Workshop. I called 140 youth ministers in June and July to tell them about my website.

100 youth ministers and ministers recognized me in the pink Jason Goldtrap.com shirt.

They thanked me for my hard efforts. Whenever someone said “There’s nothing good for kids out there” someone in the audience immediately reminded them of my book.

I got 10 speaking engagements because several large churches recognized my talents and wanted my insight.

Every day, an A-list CofC celebrity invited me to lunch. “Here’s how I became a big success” they said. “Let me help you.”

THAT’S WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED

Should we talk about the weather?

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Spiritual Growth Workshop

Spiritual Growth Workshop

By Jason Goldtrap 07.28.08

This was my fourth time attending the Spiritual Growth Workshop masterfully hosted by the Orange Avenue Church of Christ in Eustis, Florida. Joe Roberts is a talented, inspirational leader of this enriching program. My Thursday night, most of Friday and most of Saturday experience was an awesome glimpse of Heaven. Everything that the Orange Avenue Church of Christ and Joe Roberts could do to make it worthwhile they did with true professionalism. From my experience that is a hallmark of caring. Human beings express their affections for others by doing their best and for the fourth time, that church came to bat with their A game and knocked it out of the park!

The Speakers: It’s hard to pick out a favorite speaker. It’s like choosing your favorite donut at Krispy Kreme. All of them are great but inevitably, you must make a selection. Opinions, like belly buttons, are common and of equal value. Of the twelve speakers I heard, my favorite was Randy Simmons, preacher for Gulf Coast Church of Christ in Fort Myers, Florida, my birth-town. His enthusiasm and infectious passion made his presentation “Characteristics of an Attractive Church” as exciting as it was informative. All of his suggestions were abundantly practical, cost next to nothing and can be accomplished by any sized congregation. No notes, no PowerPoint, just extemporaneous, Pentecost quality “here’s what you need to do preaching.” He genuinely loves his fellow man. I’m not disparaging the other speakers; I’m just saying that some people’s spirit can be seen across the room. He doesn’t have that preacher look or tone rather he is the guy down the street who’ll let you borrow his weed-eater and you’ll want to know about that peace that passeth understanding down in his heart. If I were a member of Gulf Coast Church of Christ in Fort Myers, Florida the idea of being a pew warmer would be utterly foreign to me.

My sentimental favorite speaker would be Matt Dabbs, a fellow blogger and an all around nice guy. Matt Dabbs has this cuddly teddy bear quality about him. He and his lovely wife are models for Good Mentoring and Good Marriages… literally. My guess is that Matt is the frequent bearer of hugs at his native Northwest Church of Christ in St. Petersburg. Meet Matt and you’ve made an instant, life-long friend.

I also enjoyed the messages I heard from Flavil Yeakley, Juan Monroy, David Young, Randy Harris, John Rissie, Randy Lowry, Terry Singleton and Arnelious Crenshaw, Jr.. Randy and Matt were just standouts in my mind.

My wife Jamie’s favorite speaker was Arnelious Crenshaw, Jr.. His class on Life Transitions meant much to her, especially now. She attended his other two classes during our visit. She also enjoyed Lynn McMillon, Randy Harris and Rhonda Lowry (Dr. Randy’s wife). Jamie said I would’ve liked Wesley Leonard’s Thursday night keynote “Is God Still On His Throne?” but I saw Wiley Lowe’s lesson to the teens.

Ken Bolden of the Africa Self-Help Initiative and World Radio from the Whites Ferry Road Church of Christ in West Monroe, Louisiana and I have been talking on the phone and emailing each other for a couple of months. He is a happy bundle of love who greatly cares about the people of Africa and the Savior they need. This morning, he preached on the incredible, spirited movement across the world for Jesus. It’s easy sometimes to think that the Church is a creation of the American South. It’s easy to extrapolate that the problem du jour will bring an end to the Restoration Movements’ plea. It’s far more blessed to realize that the Great Commission does not end with church splits rather the Royal Banner is spread aloft on six continents, two hundred nations and my brothers sang a cappella in Bantu and Amharic and six thousand others languages I’ve never heard of, praise God for the Power of His Living Word.

I wish they did this every year. JG :)

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Mr. Ulee, does everyone count?

Sarah And Her Friends
Bonus Chapter: Mr. Ulee

May 1, 1909

Simon approached the large beige house with some vigilance. Yesterday afternoon, he and Harriett had walked around the neighborhood knocking on doors, inviting people to a Bible study. They’d gotten a few positive responses, many indifferent replies but the response from 113 Hinson Ave. was down right strange. Mr. Ulee had reacted to their invitation with a barrage of obscenities and near threats. Harriett was so upset that she cried for several minutes. Simon was angry, but he tried to temper his passion with prayer. So there he stood, the day after receiving the worst vocal thrashing of his life on the same porch. His human side wondered if he’d lost his mind. His spiritual side was willing to give the man another chance. He knocked on the door.

“Whatever you’re selling I ain’t interested” came an obnoxious voice from behind the screen door in the darkened parlor.

“I’m not selling anything Mr. Ulee.”

Simon heard the man slowly get out of his chair and walk to the door. The man was confused. He snapped his fingers.

“You’re that kid from Jennings right?”

“I am. I was here at your house yesterday with my girlfriend Harriett. We invited you to a Bible study. You replied with the most extensive barrage of profanities I’ve ever heard.”

“And I meant every word. I don’t want to study the Bible you dimwit now get off my porch before I call the police.”

“I am not going to invite you to a Bible study, sir. I am here to fix your porch.”

He shook his head. “What does that mean?”

“Well sir,” Simon put down his box of tools. “I grew up in Columbia Falls, in Flathead County.”

“That name suits you.”

Simon snickered, “Good one. My father was a carpenter. I grew up helping him build houses. Yesterday, when I came here, Harriett’s shoe went through one of the steps. She was embarrassed thinking that it somehow reflected on her size, she’s over-sensitive as all women are about such things. I explained that the problem was not with her it was with the support struts on the steps. They’re worn out. The heat of summer and the deep cold of a Montana winter places a lot of stress on the wood and over time it collapses.”

Mr. Ulee stepped on to the front porch. He gingerly placed his foot on the top step, it gave way. “I suppose that’s true. I hardly ever use the front porch. I’m a big man and I usually go out back to the garage to get my car. So, my steps are broken, big deal. No one comes to visit me excepts whinny charities or snake oil salesmen or do gooders like you. Besides, I don’t have the money right now to fix my steps.”

Simon looked at him with compassion. “You have some scrap lumber in the back. I saw it from another house yesterday. That’s more than enough to fix the porch. And… I’ll do it for free.”

Mr. Ulee was shocked; however, his bewilderment soon gave way to laughter. “You’re joking.”

“I’m serious. It wouldn’t take me but an hour to do it.”

“Why the… why on earth, would you want to repair my steps for free?”

“Because I am a dimwitted, flat headed do-gooder.”

Mr. Ulee rubbed his chin. “This has got to be some kind of scam. You want me to join something or give you money or….”

“Mr. Ulee, I’m on a full scholarship which means I don’t need any money. I’ve already told you that I would not invite you to have a Bible study with me. You are by far the most obstinate man I’ve ever encountered. My common sense side says to never come near your house again but here I stand because, sir, my spiritual side is reminding me that I believe in the power of goodness. If I do this good work for you, God, my Benefactor, will bless me for it.”

“I don’t believe in God.”

“I guessed as much. Please, sir, let me fix your steps. You don’t have to talk to me. I won’t leave any material at your door. If I come back by the only thing I’ll ask is ‘How are your steps?’”

Mr. Ulee sighed. “You really, really want to fix the steps of an ungrateful, foul mouthed, old, fat and lazy atheist?”

Simon nodded. “More than anything else in this world at the moment. I could be spending this Saturday morning with my friends or studying or, or, or on a picnic with Harriett. Instead, the only thing that I want to do is fix your steps. I won’t ask for any money. If you give me any money I’ll drop it into the collection plate tomorrow morning at the Ewing Street Church of Christ. Sir, I want to fix your steps.”

Mr. Ulee swished his mouth. “Well, I can see that you are bound and determined to do this. Kid, if you want to waste your time and sweat on these steps, be my guest.”

He turned around. Went inside and slammed the door.

Simon merrily shrugged to himself and went to work. An hour later, Simon knocked on the door. “Mr. Ulee, I’m all done. Do you want to see the work?”

“Sure.”

He came out of the house, walked on the porch and then slowly put a foot on the top step. “Well I’ll be. You fixed it alright.”

Simon wiped some sweat from his brow. “I gave you my word and where I come from, your word is everything.”

He bent down and examined the work closer. “You did a remarkable job. But, I still don’t want to waste my time studying the Bible with you.”

“And I won’t ask you.”

Simon began collecting his tools.

“You ever mow a lawn?”

Simon shrugged. “I have. Why do you ask?”

“If God or a voice in your head or a burning bush is telling you to fix my porch, then, maybe next week he’s saying that you should mow my yard… for free.”

Mr. Ulee snickered to himself, proud of his contrarian ways.

Simon finished gathering his tools. “I’ll be here at 9 am on Saturday.”

“No, no, no. Kid, I was just razzing ya’. I’ve got money to pay.”

“But I won’t accept it.” Simon picked up his tools.

“I’ll see you again one week from today at 9 am.”

Mr. Ulee just nodded. As Simon walked away he begrudgingly said, “I’ll see you then, kid.”

Saturday morning, May 8, 1909, 9 am. There was a knock on the door.

“Whatever you’re selling I ain’t interested” came an obnoxious voice from behind the screen door in the darkened parlor.

“I’m not selling anything Mr. Ulee. I have a lawn mower with me. May I please mow your lawn… for free?”

Mr. Ulee came to the front door. “If you want to kill an afternoon in the blazing heat then be my guest but I refuse to study the Bible with you.”

“Nor will I ask you to. Sir, I promise that I will not ask you for anything at all.”

Simon waved at a car. The horn honked twice. Harriett waved and then drove off. Simon picked up the lawn mower.

Mr. Ulee stepped on the porch and watched as she drove away.

“That was your girlfriend?”

Simon began mowing. “Yes, sir. We’ve been off and on about a year now.”

“Would you tell her for me that um…”he scratched his head. “Would you tell her that I apologize for using such foul language in front of her last week.” He looked down.

Simon nodded. “I will convey that message to her, Mr. Ulee.” He continued mowing.

Mr. Ulee rubbed his chin and then stepped back inside.

A couple of hours later Simon knocked on the door on the front door.

“All done?”

Simon was out of breath. He simply nodded. “All done.”

Mr. Ulee opened the front door. He carried a tray with a pitcher of lemonade. He placed the tray on a small table and sat down in a chair on the front porch.

“Now then, you said a couple of hours ago that you would not ask me for a Bible study or for anything else.”

“And I meant that.”

“Good. You are a man of your word, Simon. That’s a rare trait these days.”

Mr. Ulee poured one glass of lemonade and then another. He looked to Simon.

“Hot day, isn’t it?”

Simon focused on the glasses. He nodded. “Very hot.”

Mr. Ulee slowly drank the first glass. He wiped his mouth. “Very, very, very hot.”

He picked up the other glass and walked towards Simon. He stopped when he was about a foot from him.

“On a hot day like this one, a cold beer would sure hit the spot.”

Simon smirked. “I’ll have to take your word for it. I’ve never drunk a beer.”

Mr. Ulee held the glass of lemonade and let the sun’s rays beam through the glass. “I figured as much. But, I’d be willing to bet you drink lemonade, don’t you Simon?”

Simon nodded.

Mr. Ulee swished the liquid in the glass. The ice cubes were beginning to steam. “This glass of lemonade looks so inviting. And I am not the type of man to give money to charity or help another fellow break his word because, you told me a couple of hours ago that you wouldn’t ask for anything from me.”

Simon looked at him resolutely.

Mr. Ulee drank half the glass. He poured out the rest on the lawn.

Simon said nothing.

Mr. Ulee wiped his mouth. He looked out on his yard. “Good job mowing.”

“Thank you,” replied Simon.

“If it weren’t for my over grown hedges and wilted flowers, this lawn would be a right pretty place. But as it stands, your mowing doesn’t mean a whole lot when it’s put against this shoddy lawn.”

Simon hesitated. “It was good exercise for me. I would be most happy… I mean, I could do with some more exercise next Saturday at 9 am.”

“I’ll see you then. By the way, what time is your girlfriend supposed to pick you up?”

“11:30.”

“Well, since you are not going to break your word and ask me to sit on the porch in the shade while you wait for her, I’ll invite you to do so.”

Simon smiled. “I appreciate your thoughtfulness.”

Simon sat down in the chair next to the table which held a tray with a large pitcher and two empty glasses of lemonade.

Mr. Ulee picked up the tray. He took it back inside and shut the door.

Saturday morning, May 15, 1909, 9 am. There was a knock on the door.

“Whatever you’re selling I ain’t interested” came an obnoxious voice from behind the screen door in the darkened parlor.

“I’m not selling anything Mr. Ulee. I have hedge trimmers, a spade and a hoe with me. May I please tend your yard… for free?”

Mr. Ulee came to the front door. He nodded. “I ain’t studyin’.”

“And I ain’t askin’.”

A couple of hours later, Mr. Ulee stepped on the front porch. “That looks good enough for me, Simon, won’t you call it a day?”

Simon sighed. “I will.”

He gathered his tools. Mr. Ulee disappeared behind the door. He returned a moment later with another tray with a pitcher of lemonade and two glasses.

“It’s another scorcher.”

Simon shrugged. “I can’t remember a Spring this hot.”

“You um… you thirsty?”

Simon nodded. “Parched.”

“Then… would you like to ask me for a glass of lemonade?”

Simon slowly shook his head. “I won’t ask you for anything.”

Mr. Ulee sighed. “Well, I am a practical man. If you were to have a heat stroke on my porch there’d be a big commotion and I like to keep to myself.”

He poured two glasses and then drank them in front of Simon.

“Around back is a hose pipe. Would you go there and refresh yourself?”

Simon gave half-of-a-smile. “I will gladly go, sir.”

He stepped down from the porch. Mr. Ulee watched as he walked around the side of the house.

Thirty seconds later, as Simon was wetting his hair with the hose pipe, he felt a tapping on his shoulder.

“That hose pipe is thirty years old. It’s probably not healthy to drink from it. Here, will you have some lemonade?”

He handed Simon a glass.

Simon beamed. “I am touched by your consideration.”

As Simon began drinking the lemonade, Mr.Ulee spoke up, “The son of a carpenter, no doubt knows how to retile a roof, right?”

Simon nodded.

“If I were to go to go to the hardware store and get some tiles and some two inch nails….”

Simon shook his head. He held up three fingers.

Mr. Ulee shrugged. “Three inch nails, do you think you might come back next Saturday at… say… 9 am?”

Simon gave him back the glass. “9 am.”

Harriett’s car pulled up in the drive way.

Simon waved at Mr. Ulee as he stepped into the car. Mr. Ulee paused and then gave a small wave back to him.

“Saturday at 9 am.”

The car pulled away, Mr. Ulee stepped back into his house.

Saturday morning, May 22, 1909, 9 am.

As Simon approached the house, he noticed the large yellow poster tacked on to the door. He wondered what it meant. Soon his face fell.

“This property is hereby repossessed by the Montana Chemical Bank. A public auction will be held for this property at this location at 11 am on June 16, 1909.”

He then read the newspaper article just below the notice.

“Maxwell Leonard Ulee, of 113 Hinson Ave. passed away at Helena General on Tuesday, May 12. He had come to the hospital earlier that day complaining of chest pains. Mr. Ulee, a long time resident of the city, was widowed in 1901. In 1902, his only child, Marcus Ulee of Casper, Wyoming, was killed in a house fire. He leaves behind no heirs. Montana Chemical Bank claims possessions of Mr. Ulee’s estate through an outstanding mortgage. They will announce a public auction of the property at a later date.”

Simon backed away from the door. He let his hammer fall on the porch. He struggled to breathe, not sure of how he should feel about this unfortunate chain of events.

He tried to whimper but the tears would not come. His practical side reasoned that Mr. Ulee was a scoundrel who likely would have never had a Bible study with him in the first place. Had he just wasted three Saturday mornings for this ungrateful lout?

Simon paced around the porch, mad, sad, angry with God’s timing.

His foot bumped into a potted plant. It rattled. Simon glared at it. He took a step back and then kicked it with all of his might. It went flying in a grand tumbling arch, dirt exploded into the yard and on the porch.

Simon sat down, exhausted. He collapsed his face into his hands.

A couple of minutes later, he heard a voice. “Is your name Simon?”

He dried his eyes and sniffed trying to regain his composure. “Yes sir, Simon Hastings.”

“My name is Bill Bradley. I’ve lived next to Leonard Ulee for fifteen years. In all that time I’ve had three… maybe four brief conversations with the man. One of those conversations was on Monday, the day before he died. I was walking by and saw him on the front porch. I waved and said, ‘Your yard is looking great these days.’

He then bragged how he’d conned this dumb college kid named Simon into working for him for free in exchange for a Bible study to which he’d never agree. He chuckled. I just went about my business. Leonard Ulee was mean spirited, reclusive and obscene. My guess is, he never said ‘Thank you’ for all of the work you did for him, did he?”

Simon looked down and shook his head.

“Mr. Ulee never participated in charity drives or block parties. He never put a political sign in his yard. No Christmas decorations. He had his groceries delivered and he never once tipped the boy who delivered them.

Normally, the adjective I would use to describe a man like Leonard Ulee is ‘No account.’ However, I’ve since had a change of heart. Because you’ve been telling me, through your sermons that everyone counts.”

Simon tilted his head. “You’ve heard me preach?”

“No. I’ve seen you preach. I’ve watched you from across the street come to this mean old man’s house every Saturday for three weeks and work for free. My wife told me how you and a girl came to our house a month ago and asked if we’d study the Bible with you.

‘No thanks. We got all the religion we need,’ my wife replied. You were pleasant to her and you and your girlfriend walked away.

However, after seeing you put this much effort, and give this much grace to Leonard Ulee then I can see that I don’t have any religion in my life, or, at least the kind of religion you believe in. Your religion is not confined to a church building on Sunday morning. Your religion is not about singing pretty songs with your friends. Your religion is about,” he sighed and wiped a tear from his eye.

“Your religion, Simon, is about loving those who are unlovable because… because that’s what God does for us.”

Simon smiled.

“And that’s the kind of religion that I want in my life.”

Mr. Bradley reached out his hand.

Simon took his hand and stood up.

“My eldest son is going to start at Jennings in the fall. It’s a fine school, but, like any place, it has temptations. He won’t have a spiritual basis for avoiding vice and, well, you can only do that through a changed heart. So, would you please come to my house and study the Bible with us?”

Simon smiled. “I would be honored.”

Mr. Bradley put his arm on Simon’s shoulder and they walked across the street.

As they walked the scene slowly faded from view.

The scene became a small corner surrounded by tall, heavy, dark curtains. Two young men were sitting on chairs thumbing through books.

“And then a couple of weeks later, me, my dad, my mom and my sister were baptized by Simon,” said a young man as he thumbed through a hymnal.

“Didn’t I tell you that was a good story, Tony?”

“You sure did, Paul. Simon is quite a guy. I don’t know how he’s going to pull this off today. I spent half the night with him cleaning up his stab wound and putting his shoulder in a cast.”

“Simon will find a way; he always does. It’s 10 am, let’s go.”

“Sure.”

Paul Bradley stepped up to the podium in front of the crowded auditorium.

“Number 516.” Paul said with a loud, commanding voice.

He waited for the students to quiet down and find the song in their hymnals.

I stand amazed in the presence of Jesus the Nazarene
And wonder how he could love me, a sinner, condemned, unclean.”

“Eeek! A new song!” Sarah thought to herself. She did not know how to sing it. She mumbled along to a few other hymns, some familiar, some awkwardly modern.

Disappearing posts?

This little sane corner of the web has got a little wacky in recent weeks. The Ron Paul wing has moved in. Yesterday I created a post and still has not shown up on the regular Church of Christ listing. Is there some manner of censorship afoot or has their been a coup?

Words

Sarah Conrad of Eagle Creek
Bonus Chapter: Words

September 14, 1901

Larry Hall was sullen as he walked from the depot. His mind was filled with dire thoughts. He approached the Eagle Creek School with much trepidation. When he opened the door to the new building he could hear the sounds of people arguing in the office of his wife Janet, the principle. Eight angry parents stood in the small room. Janet felt trapped behind her desk.

“It is not my fault!” Janet flailed her arms as she spoke. “Sheridan County will not give this school accreditation if we have no standardized method of finding out what your kids know!”

She struggled to maintain her composure. “Yes, this is Saturday! Yes, they should be home! Yes, Mayor Tallard should have taken care of this situation two weeks ago but he’s been busy with his wife in the hospital in River City. On Monday, at exactly 9:00 am, in Plentywood, the children of Eagle Creek must have some proof that they can add ‘one plus one’ and point out Montana on a map! If we do not present that proof then the diplomas we hand out in May will be meaningless.”

“How can you build a new school building, fill it with books and desks and then…?”

Larry Hall grew tired of the commotion. “Everybody hush up.”

Jim McCoy stood his ground. “I’m not going anywhere until I get some answers and this woman is….”

Larry Hall ignored him and read aloud from a telegram. “Date: September 14, 1901. To: All stations of the Northern Pacific Transportation Corporation. From: Home Office, Pierre, South Dakota. Be advised that there will be limited train service between major hubs during the next few days to mourn the….”

He stopped speaking. He was too upset.

Everyone in the small office became silent. They knew what was coming next.

“Sweetheart,” he said to his wife. “As a member of the Eagle Creek School Board, I am declaring an emergency and ordering that an assembly take place in front of the schoolhouse in fifteen minutes. I’ll go spread the word around. I think the whole town should be together to hear this message.”

Janet wiped her tears away. She stood up and went to the four classrooms to tell the teachers.

Fifteen minutes later, a couple of hundred people stood outside the schoolhouse. Larry Hall volunteered to speak since Mayor Tallard was in River City. He stood on a wagon.

“I guess… um… I guess we should’ve expected this news. However, that expectation certainly does not make things any easier.” He wiped the tears from his face.

“I’m not an orator of any skill. We got Preacher Baker and Reverend Gil here; I’ll have them speak after a bit. Doris tells me that Reverend Litchfield is in Quincy today visiting his brother.”

He cleared his throat. “I went down to the train depot a few minutes ago to make sure I had enough pallets for a lumber delivery tonight. And, and, that was the… most important thing I was going to do today until I saw the station master, Connor Douglas sitting in his office there, crying his eyes out.”

He shook his head. “I’ll just go ahead and read the telegram.”

A hush came over the crowd.

“Date: September 14, 1901.
To: All stations of the Northern Pacific Transportation Corporation.
From: Home Office, Pierre, South Dakota.
Be advised that there will be limited train service between major hubs during the next few days to mourn the passing of President William McKinley who, this morning, succumbed to bullet wounds he had suffered on September 6, 1901. Vice-President Theodore Roosevelt will take the oath of office later today to become the twenty-sixth President of the United States of America.
Until further notice, all inter-modal routes will be for official government purposes only unless directed otherwise by your regional supervisor.
May God be with our new Commander-In-Chief. May God comfort the widow McKinley. May God have mercy on us all.”

He dropped the telegram to his side.

Most everyone was crying or hugging their family members.

A voice came from the crowd. “Why would someone want to kill the president?”

“I dunno, Joe.” Larry said as he scratched his head. “The River City Star said the man was an anarchist, they don’t believe in government.”

“So the anti-something or other people did it? Wasn’t the guy a foreigner?”

“Leon Czolgosz is the man who pulled the trigger. I’m no expert on politics but my guess is that other anarchists do not support shooting people. And the paper said he was born in Detroit. That makes him an American. His parents are from Poland but that doesn’t mean anything. The police in the big cities are rounding up anarchists just in case there’s any trouble.”

A voice came from the crowd. “Czolgosz was reading pamphlets by Emma Goldman, anarchist and Jew. That means the Jews did it.”

Someone yelled, “They’re all probably in on it!”

The crowd got into a serious commotion.

Someone else yelled, “Are there any Jews around here? Maybe we should round them up too.”

Most everyone was arguing with each other.

Augustus Grossman jumped on the wagon. “I am a Jew.”

The crowd turned to him.

“I’m Augustus Grossman! My parents were Joseph and Leah Grossman. I am a rancher. I am an honest business man. I am a lieutenant in the United States Army Reserve. Tomorrow, I will go to Eagle Creek Memorial Church and pray to my Messiah to provide benevolent guidance to our country. And if any of you cowards want to take out your anger on me or my family… well, I would not recommend that course of action.”

Augustus stood on the wagon, solid as the Rock of Gibraltar and burning like a volcano.

He snorted, “Does anyone want to take on this Jew?”

The crowd was silent.

“I didn’t think anyone would. Folks, I know you’re in mourning, like me and my house. We’re Americans. We don’t toss stones at innocent parties. We act civilized. We act like men and women who are obedient to God’s Law of love thy neighbor as thy self. Friends, this is Eagle Creek. We don’t even have a policeman in this town. That assassin was an anarchist, a political philosophy I haven’t even heard of until a few days ago.”

Augustus shrugged. “Rafe Tallard is our mayor. I don’t know if he’s a Republican or a Democrat. He’s Rafe! Larry’s up here speaking but… he ain’t the deputy-mayor. You know why? Because it never occurred to anyone that we needed a deputy-mayor. Larry’s just a citizen. He’s a member of the school board like me. He volunteered to organize this assembly so that as many people as possible could hear this dreadful news.”

Augustus rubbed his chin. “One more thing, I believe that this nation is here; I believe that this town is here because of God’s Providence. We are a collection of individuals who work, worship and breathe the Spirit of Freedom. Please, friends, please do not trade that Spirit of Freedom for the Demon of Fear. Don’t let your hurt, your disgust, your bewilderment be an excuse to act in an untoward fashion toward your neighbors. And, remember, we are standing in front of a schoolhouse. Your children are watching.”

Augustus stepped down. As he walked into the crowd to rejoin his wife, a smattering of applause followed him.

Larry nodded. “Well said, Augustus. A few minutes ago when I went to tell my wife, Janet Hall, the school principle, eight parents were in her office yelling at her because they had to have their kids here on a Saturday. My guess is… all that doesn’t much matter right now.

When I was twenty-one, we had a neighborhood meeting one evening. Rafe Tallard read the telegram that day which said President Garfield had died. I was born in 1860, so I don’t remember hearin’ about Lincoln. Anyway, that makes three dead presidents in thirty-six years.

I don’t know what this country is coming to. I can’t control what crazy people do in Washington or Buffalo, New York. All I can do is pray for my nation and make sure that my children, Roma, Lawrence Jr., Darlene, Evelyn, Donalela and Michele Marie know how to solve their grievances without violence.”

He thought for a moment. “Come to think of it, we’re in front of the school. All of the kids are here. So, I, as a member of the Eagle Creek School Board would like to hear from our children. Will anyone second the motion?”

“Second.” Rufus Mock yelled.

“Third.” Augustus spoke up.

“Three to zero, the motion is passed.”

There was a light chuckle in the crowd. “Wait a second.”

He squinted. “Ok, I see Michael Conrad waving his hand. I guess that makes the motion unanimous. Sorry I didn’t see ya, Mike.”

A little bit more laughter.

“Mrs. Lockwood? Would anyone in the first, second or third grade like to say something?”

The teacher looked to her students. Emily Clementine, age five, raised her hand.

Larry made a motion for her to come up on the wagon.

He picked her up. She stood on the bench.

She started singing.

“O say can you tell me why the doggie barks?
The doggie barks.
Oh the doggie barks.
O say can you tell me why the kitty says ‘meow’?
Oh the kitty says meow.
Oh the kitty says meow.”

Uncomfortable giggles gave way to full blown laughter.

Will Clementine finally picked up Emily and walked with her back to the teacher. Emily sang the whole trip.

Larry mumbled, “Ok, maybe that wasn’t such a good idea after-all.”

More laughter.

“However, I am the sponsor of this resolution, so, I’ll continue. I see that Carmen Tallard is raising her hand. I suppose she’s been selected as the spokesman for the fourth, fifth and sixth grades. Come on up, doll.”

The ten-year-old boldly took her spot on the wagon.

Her voice trembled as she spoke. “Mr. Hall and my fellow citizens: yesterday, in class, we made a poster for President McKinley. Cindy drew a little map of Montana with an arrow up the corner, just in case he didn’t know where Eagle Creek was.”

There were a few warm smiles in the crowd.

“Our teacher took it down to the post office. It’s probably in the big post office sorting facility in River City. Me and Mary Jo got to see it on a tour once, her uncle Kellar works there. I think we should make a bigger one and send it to President Roosevelt to tell him we support him and we will remember him in our prayers. There’s a phone in my daddy’s office. If Mr. Hall calls him, maybe, we can get the other returned.” She wore an uneasy smile. “Does anybody like my idea?”

Most everyone nodded or gave the child encouraging words.

Mr. Hall hugged Carmen.

“Your daddy’s gonna be proud when he hears about this.”

Carmen whispered, “I want to be mayor someday too.”

“Do you know what a floating bond is?”

“No sir.”

“Then you’ve got my vote.”

Larry helped her down from the wagon.

“Does the seventh, eighth and ninth grade have anything to say?”

Cathy Shepherd raised her hand. Her best friend, Cindy Jackson was nudging her and giggling.

Larry Hall asked, “What do you have to say, young lady?”

Cindy was egging her on.

Finally, Cathy spoke up. “Well, we’re supposed to be taking a county wide test today; but, since the President died, can’t we all just get an ‘A’ and go home?”

Cindy broke into laughter. Cathy chuckled along with her, reveling in her well played joke until she noticed that no one else was laughing.

Ethel Jackson marched over to her daughter.

Cindy looked up.

“We were joking mother, it’s no big….”

Ethel slapped her.

Anna Shepherd, Cathy’s mother, said, “Young lady we’re having a talk when you get home.”

Ethel turned to Mr. Windsor. “Mr. Windsor, please make sure my daughter completes the county test today even if those results are made void, I insist that she take the test.”

Mr. Windsor nodded.

Larry looked to Mrs. Grayson. “Does the senior high class have anything to say?”

A young man from the senior high class raised his hand.

Larry addressed him, “The board recognizes Ray Casey.”

Ray, seventeen and rugged, ran up to the wagon. He stepped aboard and put one foot on the bench.

“I’d like to say… ‘So what?’”

As soon as the words left his mouth a few of his classmates started trying to get at him. A sixteen-year-old classmate named Julius Walsdorf ran up to the wagon. He and Larry stood in between Ray and the crowd.

“Let him speak,” Larry shouted, “Let… him… speak.”

They continued to deflect men trying to get at Ray. They were calling him troublemaker and coward.

“Calm down,” Larry yelled, “Calm down. There will be no fighting here. Ray Casey is an American citizen. I offered a public invitation for anyone to speak their mind on the death of President William McKinley because I cherish the freedom of speech. Friends, if we only let people speak when we agree with their opinions then we would never learn anything. Now, then, Ray Casey will speak his mind and if any of you wants to stop him you will have to go through me first.”

“And me,” Julius Walsdorf said.

“Me too,” came a voice from the back.

“And me as well.” Mrs. Grayson said. “If you deny this young man the opportunity to speak or if you retaliate against him for expressing his opinion then everyone… EVERYONE in grades ten, eleven and twelve will fail the test. I don’t care what answers you mark down, if you do not put the principles of liberty into practice then you do not deserve this great nation.”

A few other adults stood with Mrs. Grayson and Larry.

Ray sneered at the crowd and made a motion with his fists that he wanted to fight. “Words Ray,” Larry cautioned. “Just use words.”

Ray started to speak. Larry held up his hand to have him wait.

“Um… say what you want.” Larry shifted his eyes. “But there are ladies present so… no swearin’, ok?”

Ray rolled his eyes. “Fine.”

Ray took a deep breath and belted out his speech. “I am a Sioux. My people are the rightful owners of this land. Because of arrogant thieves like your fathers and grandfathers and great grandfathers, my people are forced to live on a reservation.”

“Your people? Ray, you live on Elm Street!” someone yelled.

One of the kids shouted. “How dare you! I’m Sioux and I love this country.”

“Bobby Goodpasture be quiet! You are not the one speaking at this time.”

Bobby kicked the dust and hung his head. “Yessum.”

Ray continued, “The white man has deceived us, killed us and spit upon our traditions. If there is one less white tyrant in this world then I for one am thankful. You wicked people! The chickens have come home to roost!

This country is run by the oil, coal and locomotive corporations and robber barons. Those silly little votes you cast are worthless.

Whites are fools. They poison the earth. They tell my people that they are bound for hell because they do not pray like they do. Whites enslaved coloreds and then they gave them their freedom only to find other ways to take it back from them.

A couple of years ago, America started a war on the Cuban people. As I speak, the people of the Philippines are fighting the American imperialists who wear fancy uniforms and fly their pretty flag.”

He spit on the ground.

“That is what I think of your flag, your nation, your dead President McKinley and the two-bit cowboy, Theodore Roosevelt who will now occupy that filthy den of iniquity you call the Oval Office.”

All eyes remained fixed on the hot blooded young man.

He looked to the sky and yelled, “That’s what I have to say.”

He took one last glance at the crowd and then marched back to the high school class.

“Is that it?” someone yelled.

Mr. Hall cocked his head. “Excuse me?”

“You let that savage jabber on and on but you’re not going to say anything in reply?”

Larry shook his head. “No. I’m not saying a word. I’m going to let my actions speak for me.”

Larry paused. “My guess is there are a few dozen people here who will want to present a counter argument but, well, I for one don’t want to turn this into a debate.

People’s opinions are just that, opinions, nothing more or nothing less. It is how we live which is the true testament of our character. In most debates you don’t find the truth, you just find out who is the best at arguing.

If Ray Casey does not like whites then that is his opinion. So be it. His opinion does not harm me or limit my liberty. I respect his right to disagree because I want to be treated the same way.

Another thing, the way Indians are discriminated against might have an impact on that opinion. I am not excusing his belief, I am merely providing a possible context for it.”

The crowd was confused. Some agreed with Larry, other’s thought him to be a sell-out.

Ray raised his hand. “Mr. Hall, sir, may I say something?”

“Go right ahead.”

“I… um… I don’t hate you.” He adjusted his hat. “I appreciate the way you and Julius and Mrs. Grayson and Marty Conrad stood up for me just now.”

Larry shrugged. “I am grateful you feel that way, young man. That shows a great deal of maturity and humility on your part. Now that you’ve had your chance to speak on the death of our President, I will suggest that you let the grievance end here on this campus. Outsiders, other town folk, may not be as tolerant as I, especially in the wake of such a national tragedy.”

Ray shrugged. “I suppose that’s wise.” He raised his head back up. “But all that other stuff I said about this racist, corrupt government: I meant every word.”

“I know you did, Ray, I know you did. And I will mean this one word.”

Larry walked up to him. He stuck out his hand.

“Friends?”

Ray was at first unnerved but then shook his hand in return.

He gave half-of-a-smile and nodded. “Colapi.”

Larry correctly guessed at the meaning of the Siouan word. “Friends.”

Ray respectfully nodded to him.

Larry remained with the high school class. From that position he shouted, “Will one of the preachers offer up a blessing?”

Reverend Joe Gil of the Eagle Creek Baptist Church volunteered to give a benediction. When he stepped aboard the wagon, men removed their hats.

Larry whispered, “Ray, your hat?”

“I don’t believe in god.”

“Then, would you do it for Ida McKinley?”

Ray nodded and then removed his hat.

Rev. Gil spoke solemnly, “Our Father which art in Heaven, hallowed be Thy name….” As the prayer continued, Larry opened his eyes. He motioned for Ray to join him around the corner. Ray agreed. They stepped over to the playground.

Larry sighed. “Kid, what’s eatin’ ya?”

“The white man has been ravaging….”

“I heard your speech; now answer my question. Kid, what’s eatin’ ya?”

Ray ran his fingers through his hair. “I want to open my own restaurant. The Eagle Creek Café is about to go belly up. All of their equipment is probably going to stay there and I could get it for a song but,” he collapsed his shoulders. “Mr. Conrad down at the bank won’t give me a loan… ’cause I’m an Indian.”

Larry swished his mouth. “He actually said, ‘I will not loan you money ’cause you’re an Indian?’”

“Well,” he shuffled his feet. “No, not exactly.”

“My guess is, he said, I’m not going to secure a one thousand dollar loan to a seventeen-year-old who hasn’t even graduated high school yet because he was suspended last year for fighting.”

Ray sighed. “Yeah, that’s… the gist of it. He’s mean.”

“He’s prudent. Ray, if you ran that bank, would you give you a loan?”

Ray’s face fell. “Probably not.”

Larry thought for a moment. “But, you honestly and truly think you can run that restaurant?”

“With all of my heart, sir.”

“The Monday after you graduate, come to my office at the lumber mill and then you and I will talk to Michael Conrad.”

“Why would you want to help me?”

Larry shrugged. “Two reasons. I’ve known your parents all my life. Your father is a hard worker down at my lumber mill. Your mother is an excellent cook in an otherwise poorly run restaurant on Main Street. If you have half of his work ethic and half of her baking skills then I am willing to gamble my money and back you so you can build a business which will benefit this entire community.”

“What’s the second reason?”

“‘Cause I’m an evil white capitalist who hates injuns.”

Ray chuckled, “I’ll graduate sir.”

“You do that. Just so we’re clear, even if I go with you there is no guarantee that you’ll get the loan.”

“I’ve got a whole year to give Mr. Conrad free lunches and samples. But, beyond that, with you by my side, sir, that’s all the guarantee I need.”

“Good. One more thing, that stuff you said about how whites have mistreated your people,” Larry bit his lower lip. “It’s true.”

Ray tilted his head. He was not expecting Larry to agree with that statement.

“Lord willing, Ray, Lord willing, if you become a restaurateur, remember, it’s your business. If you develop a reputation for providing an excellent meal at a fair price, then when people walk into your restaurant no one will care if their seating hostess is Chippewa or if the dishwasher is Blackfoot or if the waiter is Arapho or if the owner is Sioux. All they’ll care about is their food and their money. And those economic transactions will benefit your people a lot more than brawling on the schoolyard.”

“You’ve given me a lot to think about, Mr. Hall.”

“Good. Don’t ever stop thinking, Ray. When we quit thinking we start shooting and Lord knows there’s enough of that in this world already.”

“I agree with you. If there is a god, Mr. Hall, may he bless your efforts, and, may he be with Mrs. McKinley.”

“Thanks, Ray; I’ll see you in May.”

Great quote

“People of character do the right thing, not because they think it will change the world but because they refuse to be changed by the world.”

Actor and Author Michael Josephson

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America Means Liberty And Truth

No matter how far we reach
We must always stop to teach
Principles for every boy and girl

Commitment to the great ideals
That make us wise and strong as steel
That make this the best country in the world

-chorus-
And we stand up in the Florida Keys
And we stand up in the grand Rockies
And we stand up in the east and west
And we stand up for the land I love best

And we stand up for the home of the brave
And we stand up for the lives they gave
And we teach this song of hope to the youth
America means Liberty and Truth

When obstacles come our way
We climb to the top and then we say,
“Brother, can I lend you a hand?”

‘cause it’s more than just a hill you see
It’s challenge and opportunity
That can elevate the heart of every man

And we stand up on the shores of Maine
And we work hard and we don’t complain
Our labor’s more than worth the sweat
To remember the things we can’t forget

And we stand up in Las Vegas
And we stand up so that each of us
Will teach this song of hope to the youth
America means Liberty and Truth

We’re stronger than our enemies
No fear in the land of the free
‘cause we make things better than before

No matter what they might tear down
Old Glory flies, it’s still around
With endurance and with faith from the Lord

And we stand up in Idaho
And we stand up in Chicago
And we stand up in Atlanta GA
Nashville, Detroit, Santa Fe

And we stand up in Dallas with pride
Those cowboys just can’t keep it inside
And we teach this song of hope to the youth
America means Liberty and Truth

And we kneel down and get quiet to pray
At a spot we call “Ground Zero” today
At the Pentagon we lay a wreath
And at Shanksville we mix honor with grief

And those words still touch my soul
“Honey, I love you. Let’s roll.”
And we teach this song of hope to the youth
America means Liberty and Truth


by Jason Goldtrap
July 10, 2006 www.JasonGoldtrap.com